{Excitement!}
Oct 16th 2007steak_girlDaily
My backpacking buddies and I made a pact to return to the most beautiful backpacking destination in Washington every year the weekend after permit season is over. That weekend is this coming one. I’ve been wavering on whether or not I should go because the weather has been biting cold and rainy and our project is going Alpha this Friday. I assumed half the backpacking crew would be on the same fence because of the weather, but we met up during lunch today to discuss trip plans and everyone was gung-ho over the trip, which got me equally giddy in no time.
The last time I was this giddy was…oh gee, for the last trip, so it seems like the only thing that gets me excited these days is dragging a ridiculously heaving pack up some mountain in freezing ass rain – glutton for punishment that I am. I’ve been in a bit of an odd mental funk these days and no amount of partying or hanging out with friends was able to shake me out of it. This mental funk is something that I think hits a lot of the 30 something crowd…I call it “The Beginning of Feeling Mortal.”
Hitting 31 was when I first felt a twinge of understanding that I will one day die from old age, prior to that, death by aging is a concept as foggy as counting to one trillion. Mind you, I understand I’m still far from “old age” but it’s just no longer a number that I can’t count to. With that feeling came a need to make peace with the idea of death, which led to the need to constantly over-analyze life – to question every moment because “The unexamined life is not worth living.” Then the more I questioned life on making peace with death, the more I came across the answer of simply stop pulling myself out of moment and to live a good life…but if a good life requires examining, I’m back to square one.
Obviously, I’m going crazy here and I’m two steps away from committing myself, but before I do that I have important unfinished business to attend to, like finishing Legend of Zelda: Phantom Hourglass. It’s so damned good that I’m a little pissed that I didn’t think of half the puzzle concepts they came up with. I’m a bit irked by how many times they make you go back to the Ocean King dungeon but I freaking love the boomerang. They should consider renaming “Legend of Zelda” to “Legend of Cutting Grass” because that’s all that you really do in all the games.
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